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[Mar. 20th, 2004|11:12 am] |
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| | Belle - Beauty and the Beast | ] |
hmmm. im a bit bored of ma journal as everyone else prolly is. Soooooo i am writin in ma diary instead, much more personal and i can put my real feelings, i dont really trust putting m real feelings in journals. Its not the people who read it i dont trust its just the internet in general, plus i feel that a diary is more heart felt. Hmmmmm. Mkay |
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| Hewyejdsjsal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Mar. 17th, 2004|02:52 pm] |
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| | Aerosmtih - Cryin' | ] |
hey, im in CLC sat wid nicolas. Hmmm im bored. Bin lookin at Disney College again! I cant wait. It will be well fun! I fancy goin home early. MmMmMmMmMmMmM CARLA! |
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| Good Good |
[Mar. 11th, 2004|09:30 pm] |
Had another great day today, god i love life. Been out with the boys, missed kev and boston and becki and eveyone else who wasnt out but we still had a good time. Many thanks to lee for his hospitality. HAHAHAHA got my own back by tickling millard REALLLLLLY well! twas fun. Nice to see jemma again as always. Was a bit miffed at nicole though for throwin a "Its always me that gets picked on!". Whatever. She knows it isnt. Hope everyone else is well in the wonderful world of Wortley. Lookin forward to Friday, i love fridays. And i will prolly be White Ros'in it on sat with abram and the usual lot! Should be fun. Right im off to bed to get some well earned sleep.
Goodnight and Godbless everyone,
Hibbert |
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| *If the lights go out* |
[Mar. 10th, 2004|09:27 pm] |
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Had another enjoyable night out at the bench. I love goin out. Im tryin to do mr. iles homework. Givin up, i hate science. I really am gonna have to get over carla, i cant keep chasin after something that seems like it wont ever happen, but i cant stop, i like her so much. I cant just switch feelings on and off and people should know that it simply doesnt work that way. I really feel that i am inadequate for her. I still feel bad about jade, but if i dont like her i dont like her. Im bein a bit hypocritical, chasin carla but sayin no to jade. I just really really think that we would be good together, that i could make a good go of it. Grrrrrr why is love so hard to find! |
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| MmMmMmM::::: CARLA |
[Mar. 9th, 2004|07:33 pm] |
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Man, its confirmed. I have no chance with carla she tells everyone. But for somereason i dont wanna give up. I cant give up. There must be something. Some how i can see it. I want her really bad. I cant help thinking that im never gonna be good enough for her. There must be something that i can do. Theres got to be. Im not giving up. I cant. |
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[Mar. 9th, 2004|07:21 pm] |
Things are good, i feel terrible about the Becky incident but she is okay now. Im glad. I never meant it hurtful, just bein a bit of a prat like usual. Wow i got this gay top from Topman, i like it, it goes well but the lads wouldnt know, theyd just call it gay, but hey! Thats me! if i wasnt the gay one then i would be a nobody! i feel really bad about jade. She really really likes me but i dont feel the same way. I like her as a friend but not more. And the carla situation, well. Its not good really but what can i expect. I dont even want to be her bf, just a date. Take her out, get to know eachother. Im not that bad a lad am i? I just dont know what to do. I have no experience with girls. And none with lads just for the record! But all joking aside, im really a noob wen it comes down to it. Whatever i may do or say i know nothing. I havnt even kissed a girl for fucks sake. I get so nervous about it but im like that. I really like carla and im scared that i cant live up to what she wants. I have liked plenty of girls but with carla its different. Plus it hurt wen i found out that oneof the reasons that she dont like me is because she doesnt want "one of Hannah's rejects". I just want her to recognise me for being me. Mark. And if she still dont like me then fine but... Ah well im just being funny. I really think i could do her ggod though. Make something of it. Not throw it all away like i did with hannah. With carla it is different. But i dont know if im just chasing a pipe dream. Im just not her perfect man. Perfection everything we are not yet everything we want to aspire to be. Grrrrrr Carla. Ah well, worse things happened at sea.
Love yalllll
Mark |
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